Before I was even old enough to put a name to the sound and even long before I knew the joy of being loved by another, all I had and all I loved was music. The good ones were enough to take my breath away, slow my pulse and elevate me to another level of consciousness……It felt so good that I simply couldn’t have enough of it. It made me giddy just by melodiously hinting at the things that I could only dream of and even expressing those deeply buried feelings that most of us were too afraid to admit.
I first fell in love with Devine, Brandy, Michael Bolton, Luther Vandross, TLC, Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys and N’Sync. Then my parents took me back to the old school jams with Diana Ross, Marvin Gaye, Patti Labelle, The Manhattans, Earth Wind and Fire, Tina Turner, Smokey Robinson, Barry White and Whitney Houston. Then the Millenium heralded the start of a new relationship with some hot R&B lyrics blazing the charts with Neyo, Usher, Kelis, Rihanna and Shakira.
I love music because it’s dynamic…the fact that some don’t like what others see as brilliant only reinforces the fact that music has something for everyone. Whilst I will eventually get old and die and my relationships aren’t guaranteed to last forever – one thing’s irrevocable….music has been and will always be my first love
It seems like the recession represents the age old adage that ‘misery loves company’ since it has surely dragged most of us into the abyss of uncertainty, worry and even frustration. I am sick and tired of working so hard and dedicating so much time and effort to my job, university and every other aspect of this wretched life only to have months and years of hardwork destroyed within minutes by the avaricious and wealthy elite. But I will not waste my time on a reality that I can hardly change, I can only control how I will approach the future henceforth and I will start by taking it one step at a time 😉
Christmas is approaching and I am broke. As a full-time student job hunting I have had my fair share of disappointments and headaches due to failed interviews, unanswered emails and ignored CVs. The government has voted for a raise in University fees, I have an exam approaching that I have barely managed to study for and I have already exceeded my overdraft. What is my response to all this? I’ll let you know when I can think of one lol.
The thing about this life is that things tend to happen when you least expect it; things take a turn for the better when you stop worrying about it; you tend to find things that you’ve lost when you stop looking for it and ultimately however tough and rocky the road may be, fate doesn’t tend to cast a blind eye on a hardworker. I will always cherish my mum for her wisdom when she said to me that life is like a wheel that is constantly turning. Each spoke has someone’s name written on it and with every rotation, however small, that someone will receive a breakthrough. When I first heard it I thought to myself, ‘well whatever makes you sleep at nights’…..pretty much the same way that people say that it’s the ugly ones that insist that beauty is on the inside. But on the contrary, there is some truth to what my mother said.
Regardless of what happens I know that the race is not for the swift but who can endure. I can’t say that I was built to win but I sure as hell know that I was built to fight and that’s exactly what I intend to do. In the end when I am sitting around that dinner table with my family and friends, singing christmas carols, opening gifts and reflecting on the good times this year…….I will look back at all of this and think ‘What recession?’
I have always been a fan of hi-tec gadgets including laptops, cameras and especially mobile phones. Why is that? Well it is not because I needed these things to counteract any lack of confidence or serve as my right of passage into the ‘cool’ circles or even to help validate my very existence in this very fast pace world. No, on the contrary they were an extension of myself. The more unique and unattainable they were (both in price and availability) the more attractive they appeared but more than anything else, the sleek designs were what ultimately captivated my attention.
Have you ever seen the light bouncing off the unblemished surface of a recently released smart-phone? Have you ever marvelled at how manufacturers manage to pack so much technological ‘umph’ into small devices and still do justice to its aesthetic appeal? Have you ever felt that deeply satisfying feeling of buying that long awaited gadget and knowing that the wait was worth it? If you can relate to this then you are no different from me. However, why does that initial euphoria eventually wear off?
Well talking from experience, it’s sometimes because the hype doesn’t match the reality. Ever had a 5 megapixel camera embedded in a smartphone that gave you picture quality that was akin to the quality of black and white television back in the day? Ever had a phone that had every single feature imaginable but somehow managed to neglect some fundamental ones like bluetooth and sd card expansion slots? Ever had a laptop that was hailed the biggest, baddest powerhouse for generations to come but then managed to break down within a couple of weeks? Then again it could simply be that we thrive on the prospect that whatever we possess at the moment will inevitably be outdone by a new release or better competition. Therefore, it is only fair that we look upon our current gadgets favourably until something else emerges to take its place. Likewise, maybe our expectations were truly too unrealistic to begin with or maybe time has taken its toll and its time to move on to greener ‘hi-tec’ pastures.
Whatever the reason I know that in the end I will continue to have that ‘love-hate’ relationship with technology. Fortunately, technology on a whole won’t know the difference…………….